Wednesday, May 08, 2019

a man's best friend.

I'm ashamed of my fears, as I imagine most people are. Ashamed to have had them for so long, too.

Desire gets a lot of attention as a driver of the way you construct your life but of course entire lives can be bent in a particular direction due to a single overriding, unexpressed or even unacknowledged fear. Fear is much less malleable and protean than desire, remains pretty constant over time. It also tends to hide itself in fantasies that have no "positive" content as such, fantasies of evasion rather than fantasies of possessing or becoming.

I look (glancingly)  at my own fears and I feel ridiculous, but that's partly because I have so little idea how common they are.








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